Movie Reflections Plus Birthday Remembrances

Just last year, I watched 2012 in SM Batangas. Yun yung movie na nakasabay ng New Moon sa takilya. Ok siya, about sa destruction of the globe through climate change. At ngayon Nov 29 2010, napanuod ko naman ang The Day After Tomorrow kaya ko naalala na exactly this date yung isa. Co-incidence ba? Pareho ang theme nung movies. Parang naiba lang ang mga tauhan pero climate change din ang pinagmulan ng conflict sa plot.

Ang saya. Siguro they have something to tell me. On a 29 of November? Birthday ngayon ng best friend kong babae si Joanne Saldaña. Hindi naman siya ecologist. Hindi rin naman siya member ng green peace.Hindi rin siya member ng kahit anong NGOs na makakalikasan.

Hay... si JS. Birthday niya ngayon. Siya ang non-biological sister ko kasi nilagay niya sa tag sa photo sa facebook na non-biological brother niya ako. Kapatid ko nga siya pero di ko pa siya nakakasama sa birthday niya. Sad talaga. Lagi na lang wala sa tabi lahat ng pinaka importanteng tao sa buhay ko. Si Shaira for example, nasaan ba? Wala. Si Dianne? Wala ilang taon na na hindi ko nakikita. Si Rand, si Daryl, si Bryan at si Kevin... ni hindi ko pa mga nakakainuman ngayong taon na ito. Mabuti nga kahit papaano nakasama ko pa si Alot sa binyagan ng anak niya noong fiesta eh.

Pero masaya pa rin ako kasi kahit hindi ko nakakasama si JS, eh mahal na mahal niya ako. Nakakatawa nga eh. Hindi ko siya kababata. Hindi ko siya kapit bahay. Hindi ko siya kaklase noong highschool, elementary or college. Wala basta nagkakilala kami noong mga panahon na pareho kaming sobrang passionate sa theater. Nagkasama kami sa isang workshop at hidni ako participant nung workshop. As in wala talagang common denominator na institutional para magka bond kami only our love for the performing arts. Hindi ko nga alam na magkaibigan na kami until noong tapos na ang OJT ko sa CCP tapos nagkikita pa rin kami. Yun na... alam ko na na magkaibigan kami. Basta, hindi namin alam kung kelan nagumpisa. Nagulat na lang kami super close na kami.



Tinanggap ako ni JS sa lahat lahat kahit hindi niya ako kaklase o ka-org. Yung mga kababawan ko sinasakyan niya at yung mga malalalim kong ideas pilit din niyang inintindi althouh hindi namin napaguusapan si Lara Faye kasi sasapakin ako nun sa katangahan ko. Yung mga dugo namin parang connected by the arts. Parehas kasi kaming taong-teatro kaya nagkakaintindihan kami at extrovert din kasi kami pareho. Kahit sino kilala si JS sa UST. Grabe yun. Ang laki ng bag niya may dala siyang kahit ano kulang na lang martilyo. At sobrang love siya ng teatro tomasino. Ako naman naging kapamilya nila dahil pasok ako ng pasok sa usteh dahil nga dinadalaw ko si JS at si Richard. Si Chard naman kahit na minsan si kami nagkita sa UST. Tuwing andun ako wala siya. Ay one time pala noong naka duty siya sa hospital. Birthday kasi ni JS ngayon kaya puro kay JS. One time magsusulat ako tungkol kay Chad at paglalaruan ko siya dito sa blog ko hahaha.... Malakas sa akin yang dalawang yan. Make that three kasi may Myqeen pa although she comes from a different world. Noong una taka ako kasi UST sila 3 pero iba si Myqeen. Now I finally understood. But just the same lahat sila precious sa akin. Mas mataas lang talaga ang level ng friendship namin ni JS.

Kung ipapanganak kami ulit. Gusto ko magkaibigan ang mga parents namin tapos lalaki kami na magkasama para siya talaga ang best friend ko. Sigurado idol niyan si Ma'am Jem [Puna], third year adviser ko. Magkamukha sila eh. Gusto ko para kaming si Bogs at si Mia. Puwede akong maligo sa kanila kasi may damit ako sa kuwarto niya. May mga pictures kami sa wall ng kuwarto ko. Ganun? At may kakampi ako kapag andyan sila lahat. Siyempre pag inulit ang panahon perfect na. Hindi na ako ganito kapayat. Pero kahit na ganito pa rin mas masaya na kasi may kakampi ako sa lahat ng oras. I am not saying na kulang si Dianne noon. Kaso minsan kasi siya pa ang pauna sa asaran eh. Nagtampo? Hay.. si JS ang magaayos sa akin kung liligawan ko na si Faye. Todo suporta talaga. pero siguro maiiba din ang buhay namin. Hindi ganito.

Siguro nga ito ang perfect. Hindi naman namin kailangan lumaki ng magkasama. Hindi namin kailangang maging elementary classmates; maging magkapartner sa kasal ni Tita Beth, magkapartner sa sta cruzan, magkapartner sa grad ball para masabing best friends kami. Mas sweet nga kasi very unusual kung paano ang isang kalog na Krystala ng UST at ang baritone audioslave na tulad ko ay naging non-biological siblings.

Siguro gumawa lang ng paraan ang tadhana para mabawi ko kay JS lahat ng respect na hindi ko naibigay kila Kristine, Krystel at siyemrpe kay Genevie. Ang sarap pala pag mahal na mahal ka ng isang babae hindi dahil sa anumang romantic na namamagitan sa inyo. Yung parang sandalan mo lang talaga. Very genuine, very immaculate, walang bahid ng kamalisyahan at sobrang walang sablay. Oo na oo na, nanunuod ako ng perfect Match... pero hindi ganoon yung buhay ko. Hindi ko kailangan magpanggap na bakla para tanggapin ni JS.

I just have to be me.

Eh kaya naman pala very smooth kung dinadala ang sakit ng pagsagot ni Faye kay Ronel eh. I have a perfect support system. May Mom ako na over caring, tita na sobrang sweet, barkada na ubod ng saya, at andyan pa si JS. Why do I always look for persons na wala. Samantalang buong buo pa ang iba. Siguro kaya wala si Dan para maa-preciate ko na andyan sila Vicoy, si Alger, si Raprap. Siguro kaya wala si Dianne para malaman ko na andyan si JS. At siguro kaya wala si Lara Faye [pero sana dumating pa rin siya] para malaman ko kung paanong andyan lang si Mama all my life.

Ako muna, then until the time I am ready saka ko hahanapin yung tamang babae. Puwede naman na si Lara Faye pa rin yun. Pero puwede ring hindi. Dapat maging bukas ako dun. Sabi nga sa "Miss You Like Crazy" ; time is meaningless when you are in love.
Kung naantay nga nila ang five years at nagkita pa rin sila after all na munting nang maikasal, ano pa kaya kung antayin ko si Faye. Pero kung hahayan kong makulong lang dun yung buhay ko, I might miss something so important.

Wala kaming assurance ni Faye kasi isa lang yung nagmamahal. It is a myth to believe na babalik siya because my love for her is a magnet that pulls her back. I have to go on. Andyan lang sila, ang circle of friends and supporters. They won't let me down. JS won't let that happen.

I am so grateful I have a friend like this person. At tama lang na magcelebrate ako dahil today is the day na iniregalo siya sa akin.





So to my non-biological sister,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am missing you extremely!

Welcoming First Advent Sunday

My favorite color is indigo. Next to that is mauve. Next to mauve is lilac. All these three comes from one family color. They are all combination of red and blue primary colors. Red is love and anger while blue is serenity and indifference. These color can symbolize both War and Peace.

Today we mark the first Sunday of the Advent season. The color of Advent is violet. Advent is not about war and peace. It is about waiting for the Lord. It is about waiting. A normal scenario of human life. We are bombarded by so much waiting and waiting. When you are at the MRT station. When you are alone and supposed to meet someone. When you are too young to have a girlfriend. When you are a second year high school who wants to wear a toga. When it is not the right time for something. You always wait. I always wait. We all wait for something, sometime.

Advent is about waiting for the second coming and making present also the waiting for the baby Jesus born of Mary--for Christmas.

Every time i encounter the word waiting I remember a quotation from a book i read long time ago. It says and I quote;

Waiting is surrendering to God who loves us and who knows what is best for us. Waiting helps us grow in virtue. It likewise means allowing things, events, and people to flourish, to evolve, to emerge to their fullest potential.

--A Matter of the Heart p.57
by Fr Jose Aripio
Provincial Superior of SSP Phil.-Macau province

Let us focus and contemplate to this.

Waiting is surrendering to God. Everyone during Advent is invited to surrender their whole heart and soul to God. If by waiting we mean preparation for the coming of Christ, we cannot be prepared enough unless otherwise we surrender to God. Saint Paul in the second reading teaches us that we should turn away from drunkenness and other promiscuous activities.

Waiting helps us grow in virtue. When you wait you always thought that time is wasted. instead of doing something, you are spending it for waiting which for most of us is an idle activity. But while you are waiting for something God also gives you time to hope for something. Hope cannot be realized when you do not wait. You can only hope when there is something unknown in the future and you wait for it. That makes waiting very very precious. It gives you an opportunity to be hopeful. While you wait you're etiquette is also tested by fire. you will be able to gauge how much you believe in something and cling for a certain conviction. Waiting strengthens your fundamental beliefs whether you notice it or not. Lastly, the very least virtue you can improve on while waiting is patience. By being patient you learn to relax and avoid hurrying. Being patient is a sign of a clam Christian and a dignified one.

Waiting is allowing things to evolve and emerge to their fullest potential. Whenever I am asked whether as a Christian I believe in Evolution I say yes. I believe that God did not really create everything in 7 days. 7 days is very symbolic and it can mean 7 years or 7 centuries even. God allows creation to evolve. God is never in a hurry because He has no time limit. He is eternal. I believe that when you pray, God may sometime answer it late because there nothing late in the viewpoint of God. God simply wants us to wait. In waiting you can enjoy things you might not enjoy if everything is instant and that is what we call serendipity. Hurrying is not a virtue and not even an act of a dignified individual. A learned Christian knows how to wait for his turn.

Surely you can wait until Christmas...

Verbs That Cuddle Natural Leaders

We need to admit that there are natural leaders. Their instinctive capacity for leadership is exceptional. Pero kahit na ganun, we can still learn from them. yung mga gaya namin... trained leaders.

Ang mga natural leaders hindi na kailangang mag seminar para sa leadership effectiveness nila. They breath leadership like fresh air. Pero sa mga kagaya namin we have to learn what makes them extraordinary. Some of these qualities are the verbs which they employ.

1. Leaders Exemplify. Ang isang tunay na leader ay hindi basta turo ng turo or dada ng dada. lagi siyang gumagawa at sa pamamagitan ng pagiging isang modelo nagagawa niyang mapasunod sa vision niya lahat ng nasasakupan niya.

2. A Leader Unifies. Ang mga magkakahiwalay na detalyo, pinagtatagpu-tagpo yan ng isang leader. Ang mga magkakahiwalay na ideyalismo ng mga miyembro ng isang team o organization ay pinagsasamasama niya or nire-reconcile.

3. A Leader Amplifies. Siguro isa na sa pinaka da best na gawain ng leaqder ay ang paunlarin ang pagkatao ng mga miyembro niya. Ang mga members kasi kaya yan sumusunod sa leader ay dahil may gusto silang ma-accomplish kasabay ng pagsunod nila rito. Kailangan mapunan niya ang individual growth na yun expected by each member. Sigurado effective siya pag nagawa niya yun kasi hirap ako dun.

4. A Leader Edifies. Matapos ang lahat ng ito, kailangan may naitatatag na pagbabagong institutsyunal ang isang leader. Magandang idea pero maraming pinuno sablay dito. Efforts are needed mula sa members at leader para maisakatuparan ito. Mahalaga ito kasi minsan ito ang hahanapin ng mga visionaries na gusto mag join sa organization.

So these four and if there are others, forgive me for the lack of given time.

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Her Awesome Beauty Struck Everyone

It is better to be beautiful than to be good, but it is better to be good than to be ugly.
--Oscar Wilde

Kahapon, wala sana ko gagawin at magtutulog lang. Never knew na magiging reunion pala namin ng dalawa sa mga barkada. Nagkita kami ni Regine noong hapon at ganoon din ni Kenechi.

Noong hapon kasi habang nasa gitna ako ng kuwentuhan, nainform kami na may taping na nagaganap sa patyo. So I went there together with some. Nakita ko meron nga. Taping pala yun ng Sabel. An ABS CBN teleseries which stars Jessie Mendiola and AJ Perez. Sa tingin ko malapit na iyong magsimula kasi lumabas na ang teaser nito kagabi lamang.

Nag excursion ang mga mata ko sa kaputian ni Jessie Mendiola. I must say na napakaganda niya talaga. She looks different when in person. Ang buhok niya ay tulad ng mermaid at hindi yung ilong niya parang sa manekin sa SM Department Store. Maliit lang siya pero minsan iisipin mo na hindi siya Pilipino.

I think she started as a model. Tapos naging cast sa iba't ibang teen shows ng ABS under the Star Magic managent. Now it is hightime she owns her own program. Ang hirap din pala ng trabaho niya. Yun ang work na kailangan ka titigan ng maraming tao habang ginagawa mo. Sanay na rin sila. Although hindi ko alam kung gusto ko iyon. Hindi ka makaka concentrate sa dialogue mo kapag ang daming nanonood. Totally unlike music performances na talagang para panuorin ng live.

Nothing compares to the beauty of the princess of prime time TV. Malayo pa ang lalakbayin ni Jessie para matapatan niya yun. This girl is the 403rd tax payer in the Philippines, none other than, Kimberly Sue Yap Chiu, also known as simply Kim Chiu.

Next Saturday, lalabas siya sa Wansapanataym as Super Kikay with the flying tortoise. Next Sunday naman maguumpisa na ang sarili niyang series ng Your Song Presents Kim. Matatandaang lumabas na siya sa Sunday clip na ito just this year kasama si Ai Ai De Las Alas with "Maling Akala" but this time solo niya.

I admit I was struck when I saw Jessie Mendiola pero mas na starstruck ako noong first time ko makita si Kimberly Sue sa SM last January sa red carpet primer.

Well both of them are beautiful. It really depends kung anong taste ng tao. Subjective ang beauty it is in the eye of the beholder accoording to cliche.

Thirty Days Before Christmas

Last year, on this day I was in Manila. I don't remember why pero nagpunta ako ng Manila. A simple Wednesday with matching sinat pa nga. This day si so special for me and I don't know why. Noong 2003, simpleng araw lang naman siya. Wala kaming pasok on a Tuesday. Pumunta ako noon sa Liliw para magkita nga kami ni Sheshu. ero pumunta muna ako sa may Taykin kasi doon noon nakatira sila Lola. Gusto ko lang makita noon yung mga pamangkin ko. Umuulan noon. After a while pumunta na rin ako kay Sheshu [Jejomar].

Hinintay ko siya matapos maglaro sa internet shop tapos kumain kami ng pasta. Naulan pa rin. Gusto niya pumunta kami kina Queenie Mariz. Pata na patay si jejomar noon kay Quaz. Ako naman siyempre hindi nagbago... kay Faye lang atalg kahit noon. Buong umaga magkasam kami lumalakad sa mga streets ng Liliw. Haha.. ang saya.

Tapos naalala ko na pupunta pala ako kila Bryan Coroza para hiramin yung CD ng Linkin Park sikat kasi noon yung "Numb". Pumunta ako noon mga bandang 10:30am tapos umuwi na ako. Ay hindi pala. Sumakay lang ako ng jeep para iwan na si Sheshu at ang Liliw pero pumunta pa ako noon sa San Pablo. Kahit may banta pa na lalakas ang ulan.

Magisa lang ako noon. Ihahnap ko kasi ng gift si Rizzel para sa bday niya. Hay... ayun tapos umulan nga., Wala pang SM noon kaya sa San pablo Mall lang ako ang ikot. Masaya ko kapag naaalala ko yun. Kahit nga hindi ko nakita at nakasama noon si Faye, parang ganun pa rin ang pakiramdam ko noon. Hoping na one year makakasama ko siya on that date. Pero hanggang ngayong araw na ito November 25 ulit, wala pa rin siya.

Nakakainggit talaga si Ronel. Siya ang kasama ngayon ni Lara Faye kahit hindi naman niya ito minahal noon. For the first time naranasan ko na rin ang masaktan ng sobra. Yung hindi mo alam kung saan mo lalagyan ng bond aid kasi hindi mo alam kung saan yung sugat at saan nanggagaling yung pagdurugo. Alam natin na hindi sa katawan yun.

Ok pa rin naman. Masaya ang araw na ito kahit maulan. I wish I will have more of these to celebrate next years. 2006 noong makita ko siya sakay ng van nila. Masaya ako noon at umuulan ulit. Sa Liliw yun. Ang saya. At ang ganda niya.

Sana when the time comes... mai-celebrate namin ang date na ito. Kahit hindi maging kami.

Explosive November

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

These are the words from Katy Perry's hot single "Fireworks" at chart topper ngayon. Parang last year lang, apat na kanta ang nagpapatalbugan sa iTunes noong November; Two is Better than One ni Taylor Swift at ng Boys Lyk Girl, One Less Lonely Girl ni Justin Bieber, Down ni Jay Sean, at New Perspective ng Panic at the Disco.

Now it is November of 2010 at masasabi ko na parang sobrang explosive yata ng mga songs for this month. Kasi last october nagsimula na ngang sumikat ang kanta ni Katy Perry which I mentioned above [Well anyway may kanta ba xa na hindi sumikat for this year?] na sumisikat na ngayong November at hindi malayong mapasama sa top 100 chart ng year end countdown sa UKchart at Billboard.

Tinabunan ni Katy Perry ang iba pang naglabasang sikat na country folk at pop singer ng 2009 considering 2008 siya nagsimula. Dapat nga mas laos siya pero nasan na nga ba si Leighton Meester, Keshia, at Taylor Swift? Matapos ang twiter pix scandal ni Hallie Williams humina na rin ang eksena ng Paramore. I guess we have anough of Twilight soundtrack dose. Buti pa nga si Charice eh namamayagpag. And speaking of Charice na namamayagpag, may isa pang Filipino singer na hataw na hataw ngayong 2010.

He also made this November very explosive with his wit and talent at lalo na sa single niyang "Grenade". I am talking of no other than the Paragon Half Filipino RNB singer na si BRUNO MARS. He is my new pick. My favorite who I waited for the longest time now.

Grabe ang galing nito si Bruno Mars. Early this year he gave us "Beautiful Girls all over the world..." remember that, Nothing On You. Kasam niya dun si BOB na nakasama ni Hallie Williams sa Airplane together with Slim Shady. Later on, sinamahan niya si Travie Macoy na ex ni Katy Perry para kantahin ang famous lines ng "Billionaire". Siya yun baka lang di niyo alam. Pinakilig niya ang mga kababihan with "All She Knows". Muli niya namng sinamahan si BOB sa isnag single kasam rin si Cee Lo noong June lumabas sa Pilipinas, ang The Other Side. Ang ganda nito pero di puamtok sa mga kolehiyala nor sa mga rapper ng Dongalo.

Well, bigla muli siya sumabog in great explosion noong August 15 when the Philipine premiered his most popular solo performance of this year--walang iba kundi--JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. Humakot na ito ng katakut takot na hits sa Youtube at nagkaroon ng halos 100 cover video, kasama na ang cover singers at cover ng guitar drums at piano.

Now he is back this November with another explosive.... ang "Grenade" [his latest single]. He makes me proud as a Filipino. Next to Charice he is the best contemporary singer of the Filipino race. And as always I will post the lyrics of his song........


GRENADE by Bruno Mars

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had


And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

To Consume Less Chocolates

Sometimes when you are feel you are still hungry after the meal, you grasp for the brown sweet thing you always loved--Ang chocolate.

Pero as of this time, I want to eat only the foods that I will never regret eating. A healthy diet is hard to develop specially when you are used with the old ways.

Kaya nga medyo nahihirapan ako as if fasting lahat ng weekdays. I only give myself a break every Saturdays and Sundays. I can have a glass of softdrinks or some sweets or junk foods.

May magandang naidudulot kasi nagkakaroon ng pagbabago sa budget. Hindi na kasi masyado nabili. Yung Toblerone last Satruday galing yun kay Edison. i don't spend much for chocolates nowadays.

Well... let's see kung mapapanindigan ko because just counting the minutes and it will be Christmas time.

That's a lot new story after.